To be totally honest things are getting rather heavy at the moment. I am trying to hang on as there are only 2 weeks to go now so I’m just keeping my fingers… Continue reading

I need some sleep

Well I have insomnia (again) and it appears to be here to stay for the moment. I have tried everything. I’m on 20mg temazepam, 4mg of melatonin and they have upped the valproate… Continue reading

Feeling the burn: the stress of the thesis

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! My submission date for my PhD is getting uncomfortably close….. 31st May AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Ok enough of that… Well so far I am managing to keep the stress and the crazy at bay

Too much thesis writing

I’ve been writing way too much, writing a PhD is hard! so I thought I’d show you a sign my boyfriend found in the shop today.

Suicide, damn dpression, and statistics

So as the title of the post would suggest, my mood has not picked up as yet and I am sitting in a pit of despair, otherwise known as by bedroom. I have… Continue reading

OK mood, seriously WTF

After about 5 days of what you could call happiness I have slipped back into a pit of depression again. I always know things are getting serious when I start looking up the… Continue reading

My depression: magically gone

Ok so the holidays are over. I successfully managed to avoid most of it: I did make Christmas dinner and bought a few presents but that’s about it. I don’t see why I… Continue reading

Ode to a nightingale

My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains     My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk, Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains     One minute past, and Lethe-wards had… Continue reading

Leaving the crisis team, thank goodness

OK so I have been discharged from the crisis team. Not because I am well or in any way better but because they seem to think that my overall expression of annoyance with… Continue reading

Hallucinations and suicidal thoughts

I am still not feeling good at all. It honestly feels right now like I’m lost out at sea, floating through the days just trying to stay alive. I am plagued by thoughts… Continue reading