a noisy mind

Today I have been feeling really down.  I managed to go into Uni but I didn’t get much done.  My Dad is really sick in hospital so I have had that to worry about on top of my current depressive state.

I am really fighting the urge to hurt myself today and am trying to distract myself from this but its not going so well at the moment and I am worried that I am going to do something bad or perhaps terminal.

I just don’t want to be in my head at the moment, its too busy in here and I just want out. I cant think and its driving me crazy. The diazepam is helping a little but I just need some respite from this!